Photography

i sit in my room staring at the many photos layed on my desk. i am clicking back and forth of the tabs on the internet page, starring at the wodnerful works of professional photographers. i think to myself....why can't i take pictures like that. their photos are so beautifu and mine are so dull...or are they...? is my work really that bad...? maybe not.... i have to think about it this way. we are all different. and we can't have two photographers taking the exact same photos right? sure we can take pictures of the same subject, but for both photos to look identical would truely be boring. because we are all different it is only logic that our work will be too. that is what makes a good photographer, being an individual and creating one's own style. so i must think to myself i am a good photographer. and sooner or later my work will say that too...

My Sister, My Friend

my sister and i have spent the entire afternoon together. it has been lovely. we've watched two movies The Final Destination and My Sisters Keeper, we played in the snow (with Zoey some but she got cold and had to go inside), we had hot chocolate and coffee, Hannah made dinner all by her self and it was SO good (she totally should cook more often), we've been playing the Wii, and giggling the whole night. it has been a very fun day. and ya know what... for the first time in a while we didn't fight at all :) it makes me happy. we've been best friends today and its been amazing, just she and i all day... lots of fun and we totally have to do it again.

Hannah this is for you....i know i don't tell you a lot and when i do i don't always mean it or i'm joking around... but i love you for reals. i always will and no matter how much we fight/argue and no matter how much you drive me INSANE you're my sister and my best friend and i really do love you! oh you better take note of this cause i'm not gonna tell you again lol

Goodbye 2009, Welcome 2010

so of course with a new year comes the new years resolutions. i am sad to say most of mine for the past few years have failed...most i have kept some though lol. but this year i'm doing it differently. i'm setting the standards for something different. i'm not going to expect anything but simply put guidelines for myself to follow. i demand that this year will be good.

last year went by really fast and i feel i didn't get to fully enjoy it. but overall it was a good year. aside from breaking up with my girlfriend and losing a best friend to horrible lies and addictions. i gained a lot more than i ever expected from 2009. i graduated high school, started college, we went to 3 concerts (Mannheim Steamrollers, Miley Cyrus, and Jeff Dunham) which is a record for us, we went to Florida and camping. a lot of good things came of the year. i learned a lot. after the break up with my girlfriend i realized what a big mistake it was. luckily i got her back. she's my best friend and i love her so much. i can't wait to spend the rest of my life just she and i. but i've also learned to be strong. i hit some very low points in my life in the past few years. last year was the first year that i have been the strongest i ever thought possible. all the bad that's happened the last year or two has made me the person i am now. i am very proud of myself and i hope to have another amazing year.

Some of my New Years resolutions:
1. lose 40lbs before the summer
2. find something better in Florida than the roller coasters i've seen for a few years now
3. go to Kansas
4. get through my first year of college
5. help somebody in need
6. less TV more studying!
7. see Sugarland in concert :D
8. make a difference in someones life